if my heart breaks in your hands
know that it was always that fragile
and i should have told you
that i am that weak.
if my heart falls through your hands
know that it was worth being there
because within your hands
I once found home.
break my heart
rape my mind
hate me
speak to me unkind
push me away
when your spirit begins to fray
kill me
with those lies
ones you've yet to say
open me
so you can be
the one who had me
make me cry
and make me bleed
just don't say you love me.
twist me and turn me
mold me and hold me
right where you want to
make me pay you back
for nothing i ever did
take it out on me
your pains are now mine
do your worst and take me
into your dark world
and save me
or make me think you would
hate me so much
you adore me
feel every inch of skin
make me lie here
until you say when
just don't tell me you love me.
suck
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the warmth of your arms around me
burning a hole inside of me
knowing you do not really love me
You break my heart
the gentleness of your touch
oh i love it so much
but it does not belong to me
You break my heart
The way my heart beats for you
oh you melt it so and
I wanted to say I love you
but you broke my heart.
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Left behind to pick up my own remains
cast out to my dark room to be alone
released from the ties that once binded me
unraveling into an empty mess of a woman
Tears dried up from the unforgiving sun
speech muted by the chattering of the silence
falling down from heaven looking up
Never deserving the weight on my ankles
trying to grab hold onto meaning
slipping so far away from truth
surrendering to my self hate
never seeing the light of day
Bleeding but only in my heart
nobody seeing me cornered and afraid
licking the wounds of my past
and trying to dodge the knife at hand
laying down to sleep but never resting
continuously
Dark clouds on a cold night
Screams of pain and cries for more
Enemies dancing out of sight
Come up behind me and strike at my core...
"Turn around! Find the strength to fight!
Look into that dark abyss in their eyes
Turn away! Lest the damned defeat your light
Don't let them see you wince or hear your cries...
Fight! Fight! Fight!
Bloody blades against fragile skins
Fight through these dark nights
Whoever cries last is the one who wins..."
The last thrust of the silvery death
And my light vanishes from my heart,
On the battlefield is where I land and regret
that darkness I allowed in my heart.
-Amanda S. Loving.
Descending into the darkest chamber there,
I walked in quietly and sat in my chair.
I looked to the fire's empty flame,
and knew I would never be the same.
Just like a soft autumn breeze, it left me.
my feeling...my emotion...all are just empty.
I can't understand this...but I really don't care.
I'll just sit in my chair and into the fire I'll stare.
Lonesome silence dancing 'round me...
Confusion altering my mind to see...
My fears tingling beneathe my skin...
I think I'll scream but I don't know when.
Crying...clawing...trying to escape
I worry I will never reach the gate
then nothing...I feel nothing now
like I have grown nu
if my heart breaks in your hands
know that it was always that fragile
and i should have told you
that i am that weak.
if my heart falls through your hands
know that it was worth being there
because within your hands
I once found home.
break my heart
rape my mind
hate me
speak to me unkind
push me away
when your spirit begins to fray
kill me
with those lies
ones you've yet to say
open me
so you can be
the one who had me
make me cry
and make me bleed
just don't say you love me.
twist me and turn me
mold me and hold me
right where you want to
make me pay you back
for nothing i ever did
take it out on me
your pains are now mine
do your worst and take me
into your dark world
and save me
or make me think you would
hate me so much
you adore me
feel every inch of skin
make me lie here
until you say when
just don't tell me you love me.
suck
-------------------------
the warmth of your arms around me
burning a hole inside of me
knowing you do not really love me
You break my heart
the gentleness of your touch
oh i love it so much
but it does not belong to me
You break my heart
The way my heart beats for you
oh you melt it so and
I wanted to say I love you
but you broke my heart.
---------------------------
Left behind to pick up my own remains
cast out to my dark room to be alone
released from the ties that once binded me
unraveling into an empty mess of a woman
Tears dried up from the unforgiving sun
speech muted by the chattering of the silence
falling down from heaven looking up
Never deserving the weight on my ankles
trying to grab hold onto meaning
slipping so far away from truth
surrendering to my self hate
never seeing the light of day
Bleeding but only in my heart
nobody seeing me cornered and afraid
licking the wounds of my past
and trying to dodge the knife at hand
laying down to sleep but never resting
continuously
Visions of Nyarlathotep by zeldaconnetion, literature
Literature
Visions of Nyarlathotep
A stormy autumn night gives way; the cold breaking darkness is split by the figure of a man dressed in deep blacks. Almost a living shadow as the ones that surround him, he holds a crystal sphere in his right hand gently while mumbling a series of incantations in an unknown tongue- by him and by any other species. As the magician falls deeper into his trance the shadows around him seem to bend and fold. Creating a shroud of darkness around him, slowly being absorbed into his crystal it flows through his hand and into his body- the chanting abruptly stops
"The darkness consumes, encases, preserves. It grows, it feeds, and it lives. Insi
break my heart
rape my mind
hate me
speak to me unkind
push me away
when your spirit begins to fray
kill me
with those lies
ones you've yet to say
open me
so you can be
the one who had me
make me cry
and make me bleed
just don't say you love me.
twist me and turn me
mold me and hold me
right where you want to
make me pay you back
for nothing i ever did
take it out on me
your pains are now mine
do your worst and take me
into your dark world
and save me
or make me think you would
hate me so much
you adore me
feel every inch of skin
make me lie here
until you say when
just don't tell me you love me.
suck
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